Here I go again..

So I've started this blog in hopes of keeping myself accountable to the world. I'm on mission, to better my life. My first goal: to lose weight and be the healthy person I know is in there. This will be a journey, hopefully a successful one at that. I know there's a bizzilion (did I spell that right?) blogs about people's journies through weight loss but really this is not for everyone to read. This is mostly for myself, for me to look back and know what I've been through, to remember mostly.

So this is my the start of my 4th day on the south beach diet. The first two days were BAD. I had headaches and was an all-around cranky guss. But hey, I warned my husband ahead of time. By yesterday, I felt pretty good. The feeling I had when I did this diet back in 2004. An all-around pleasant feeling of my body's own energy instead of the corrupted, chemical induced, caffine ladened one I was pumping myself with daily for the last 4 years.

So you are probably now asking yourself why I jumped off the wagon 4 years ago after I was sucessful on this diet? Well for one, I was 21! Geez, I hadn't had liquor my entire life and boy did I want to partake. Once that came about and I started doing shots and having beers, I let everything else slide, mochas daily, snacks, cookies. I love treats what can I say! Then at 24 I had my first son, Maddox. After that, I wanted to change my eating lifestyle but I didn't know how. When I say that, I mean mentally and emotionally I didn't know how. I wasn't in a good place at that time. I didn't really feel too good about anything in my life except my son...he really did pull me through. About the summer of 2008, I started getting off my pity couch and decided I wanted to get my life into a better "mode." It started with little things, like cleaning more often, hanging out with family, etc. Now that I feel like my mind and soul are in a better place, I've moved into the "OMG I want a healthy body" phase.

So that's where I'm at....So far today I'm feeling good. I did have a splenda latte today but I am really limiting myself to once a week. I know things won't be perfect and I'll probably indulge in that piece of cake but I'm really making it my goal to get right back on that wagon and follow through with my goals.

SO far so good! :)