Today is not a good day.

First off, I can't wake up early in the morning. It's just not working out for me. I can't do it. I feel like such a failure saying that because of the adtage "anything is possible." I just don't feel like it's possible for me, every time I try, I fail. Yesterday, my legs were hurting pretty badly but I decided to walk on my parents treadmill anyway (even though it was suppose to be my day off). It felt good. I did a steep incline setting to really work my thighs because that's what's been hurting the most. I did a fair amount of streching, before and after. Then for a cool down, I did some free weights to work on my arms. This will have to be my daily routine until it's light enough outside when I get off work.

I am disappointed in myself even though I'm still continuing to work out. I am also struggling with some things recently and it's making me not sleep very well. I don't know why all of a sudden I am struggling this much, why I feel the need to be so selfish, but it has to stop. I have to put an end to it, I'm the only one who can. That probably makes no sense! HA! Anyways, I'm off to work. Please pray for me as I struggle to make my life what it should be, balanced and healthy!