tough times indeed

I am really having a tough time maintaining a diet. It's like I have no self-control when it comes to eating and it frustrates me to the point of tears. I was doing well for two weeks and then I just fell off completely and haven't been the same since. I am proud of myself for running alot, but that too is causing stress in my life as it seems I rush around trying to get all these things done and now I'm exhausted which in turn kind of leads to a depression. I need help, motivation, and sleep. I just don't know where to turn to or how to do this. All this is very hard for me, to admit I can't do this, to fail and have to try, try again... I hate failing. There's nothing in the world that makes me not what to pick myself up more than to fail. But that's exactly what I must do. Pick myself up, figure myself out, work out a different game plan, and try again.