*sigh*

I feel completely hurt right now. Some one I know is buying a house and they just decided out of the blue to buy a house and now they've picked one out, put an offer on it, and are ready to close. A snap, just like that...and I worked my butt off for what? To lose money and end up living at my parents house because we were ready to (and told by the way) that the house would close the following week. It is very upsetting. I looked through financial calculators today and found out that even with paying off my debt I still can't afford more than a $150,000 dollar house. I would be glad to afford any house but seriously? I see all these people around me getting houses of their dreams and I'm left in the dust struggling. I don't like it, I want to succeed. I need to keep praying to God to keep my envy in check.